Life is for those who LIVE!!!

Grief has changed me.  Losing my Shadow, and then less than 6 months later losing my Gram has changed me.  There are 2 large holes in my heart that will never be filled while I am on this Earth - holes that will only be filled when I see the 2 of them in Heaven.  At first I thought that once I stopped grieving my life and I would return to our normal reality.  But the reality of the situation is that you can never go back to who you were.  There are huge changes that I've noticed within myself now that I didn't have before. The first is that now I never really want to leave my house.  Before I had Luke, I felt this restlessness within my soul.  It was a pretty constant need for change and the need to feel young and a little reckless.  Then I got pregnant and went on bed rest and the restlessness went to an all time high.  I was sad and frustrated that I was missing out on life - more specifically on B...

Luke is now 14 months old!  It is hard to believe that almost 2 years ago, I found out I was pregnant.  So much has changed, and I wouldn't have it any other way.  Luke: weighs 24 lbs - he lost weight from being sick for a few weeks is 31 inches long has 6 teeth wears size 4 diapers wears size 24 months or 2T clothing wears size 6 shoes He loves to be outside and walking on his own He loves to manipulate things that are larger than himself He is really pretty smart and likes to figure out how things work When he is sick, he only wants to cuddle and he doesn't want to eat very much at all! We are starting to transition to sippy cups only.  No bottle anymore!