Life is for those who LIVE!!!

My Dearest Luke, In November I promised to write a letter a day to someone in my life.  You are my letter for "someone who brings me joy."  So here we go I remember when you were born and the weeks following were filled with so much love, light, and happiness.  If I had to describe those weeks I'd sum it up by saying "pure unbridled joy".  I visualize it like sun shine  pouring out on the world.  When Brittany died, I lost a huge, huge part of myself.  I remember being in California hours after I heard the terrible news and I couldn't sleep.  I tossed and turned and you had a fitful night as well.  We were sleeping in the same room as your crib and I bet I kept you up.  You woke up crying and I fed you but you still fussed and didn't want to be put back down (which is so unusual).  I remember standing in the middle of the room and rocking you in the night with tears pouring down my face and...

Luke weighs 22.7 lbs Luke is 28 inches long wears size 4 diapers wears size 18 months clothing finally has 1 tooth takes 2 naps a day He is crawling everywhere!  But he's still pretty slow at it     He eats a lot and is starting to get the hang of his sippy cup after meals   He started getting rashes from mandarin oranges and foods with acid in them like spaghetti :o(     He started sleeping on his tummy with his butt up in the air.  it's so cute     We took him to the park and he liked it a little bit but not as much as I thought he would.  He wanted to put his mouth on everything and we didn't want to let him.     He is starting to stand up in his crib now when we he wakes up   He likes playing with his cars on his ramps like a big boy!