Life is for those who LIVE!!!

I thought I had so much more time!  I was supposed to have a baby shower, take maternity photos, and fix up Ellis's room perfectly.  But Ellis had a different idea.  She wanted to come 6 weeks early.  When I think that she's only been with us for 14 days, and that technically she should still be cooking in my belly for another 4 weeks, that blows my mind!  It seems so hard to imagine that I should still be pregnant!  Yet she is here, and I couldn't be happier.  It was a crazy ride to get her here. The Wednesday before she was born, I thought I might be leaking amniotic fluid.  So I called the Dr. and went in for testing.  I had had contractions but the dr. did a ph test and said he didn't think that it was amniotic fluid.  He said that sometimes contractions can make it feel like it was amniotic fluid leaking when it wasn't.  I was unsure, but I figured he was the professional.  Thursday continued with much of the same and still I was doubtful.  Some more cont

My Dearest Ellis, Words are never enough to do our feelings justice, but I think I'm relatively good with words so I'll do my best.  I still cannot comprehend that I am having a baby girl.  A large part of it was what happened when I was pregnant with your brother.  They originally told me he was a girl too, and we didn't know he wasn't for two whole months!  It wasn't until the 4th sonogram where they told us that we were having a girl did I start to believe them. I can feel you kicking around there and moving around with your head tucked up under my ribs (please oh please turn the right way soon!)  but it's still hard to imagine what you look like and what your personality will be.  This pregnancy has been relatively easy - with the exception of thinking that there may be something wrong with your heart and intestines.  Once we got that cleared, it has been pretty quiet.  I mostly feel great!  I tend to get pretty tired after work and it's hard to mana